wow, i havent bloged for a verry ling time. . . i dont even rememmber what i said last so i will probably skip around and say random things as i remember them. .. good luck following this post! sorry! its as unorganized as my brain.
ok, so sterling scholar state finals . . . i thought i did well on my interview but at the awards assembly i found out that i didn't make it on to win state or stater runner up :( sniff snifff but its ok :) i was still shocked that i was there! so many smart people! all the winners had a 36 act and 5 dozillion clubs and awards and junk so me and my 27 act would look pretty pathetic :) haha! but john from brighton got science runner up ( john is a boy in my dads semminary class that my dad is setting me up with, i know! who would have thought that my dad would be encouraging dating! he must think i'm a loser or something for not getting dates by myself. . .but its ok, whatever, i'll make my dad happy. john seems like a nice boy)
ok next topic, lacrosse. well friday we had a game! and guess what! i played center the whole game!!! never sat out! ran the whole field the entire time!! and i got 6 ground balls, 2 assists, won all the draws, checked a girls stick right out of her hands! i thought it was a great game, that was until i got into the car and my parents started lecturing me about how slow i was. and how i was holding back in order to conserve my energy to last throught the game. my dad was a little harsher which just made me mad. but my mom said some things that made me thing about not just my performance in lacrosse but my life in general. i do tend to hold back, and dont do my best at alot of things just because i dont want to stand out or because i have a verry defensive way about thinking about things always sticking to the safe side so i dont get hurt or tierd or become vulnerabule. i know that i need to just do everything that i can to make myself better at all areas of my life and try my hardest at everything that i do. . . . but it is hard because sometimes i think it conflicts with helping others and making them happy,like in lacrosse, i could have gotten double the ground balls but every game when there is someone that normally doesn't get the ball and i see that we are both going for it, i set picks on the opposite team to that the other team mate can get the ball, even though i could easily get the ball myself, and possibly score. it kinda reminds me about how i sometimes townplay my achievments/smarts to try to encourage or bring up the self esteam of others(ok, now i'm starting to sound self rightious, thats not what i mean . . . .grr! ). . . i dont know maybe none of this has anything to do with each other. but i just need to not settle for less than i know i can do. . . .i think i'm just being confusing . . . .well i am getting sick so my brain isn't working verry well so i think i'll just come back and work things out when i can acctually think. oh ya, and this is suppose to be the lacrosse paragraph, so just so you know . . . i made 2 goals in the brighton game :) yay!
ok next topic, 5k run!! :) saturday morning i ran a 5k in provo that my nanna invited me to. it was awesome! 3.1 miles. and i was jogging all the way! didn't walk at all, i was passing people right and left! and i didn't even start breathing through my mouth until i started running when the finnish line was in view! . . . . i finnished it in 28.37 minutes. . . . and i got 5th place in my age group of 15-19 girls . . . but once again, i should have tried harder, because 4th and 3rd place were only 2 minutes ahead of me. but i did well.
then yesterday i just hung out with my vet tech friends veronica and kylie that are comming to utah state next year! :) we went to a horse show, then came back to veronicas house nad just talked till 11:10 when i left for home. to get back by my curfew for the night 11;30. . . . which brings me to another dilema :( . . . well last week i asked trevor to girls pref. for the same reason as last dance, i dont want to regret not doing anything in highschool, but it so happens that girls pref is on the same day as the tech trip down to scipio to brand and castrate calfs :( everyone had such a fun time last year but i couldn't go because i had a act test that i got a stink'n 24 on!! such a waste of time!! . . . any way, i was planning on going again this year but i dont know if things will work out now :( . . .. if trevor says no, i wont ask anyone els so i can go to scipio, but if he says yes i guess i have a few options. . . skip scipio, bring him to scipio to brand and castrate calfs ( if the teacher is ok with that), or drive there myself and leave early and figgure something else out for a day activity. sigh. . . . i think i will just get some sleep and figure things out as i get to them.
note to self: . . . favorite quote of converence by pres. monsen . . . . . "the future is only as bright as your faith"
oh ya! and jess, her's my concentration peices, :) just for you. ( i'm missing one, sorrry)
3 comments:
Those paintings are way cool, I almost had to shiver when I saw that blue-girl one. Crazy! Thanks for puttin' 'em up there :D. I think we're both in that position where we're realizing what we need to do, and it's so hard sometimes--most of the time--but I think it's kinda cool, 'cause once you start makin' those changes, it really is amazing what happens...Good luck with everything, you're awesome!
I love the way you are Jordann!! I love how you think of the "other" person before yourself. I think I was just trying to tell you to believe in yourself and your abilities. It's better to give it all you've got and fail, than to not try. GO FOR IT !! I love you! Mom
Hey It's Hill!!!! Nice paintings you should put the others on and tell everyone you win at taking pictures!!!!!!!!!!
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